Question I have out there - it has been 4 months seperation - under the same roof do to finances. She wanted the divorce, I am on disability - I depend on her. I began to learn, learn, learn while she played video games, played face book and asked what i think is grossly misinformed questions to lawyers on the phone. I went to the mediator last week to update him from the first meetings (we both only saw him once and we both agreed to put off mediation as we or I did not have a handle on finances and perhaps a handle on my emotions) so last week i went over what i found:
While I was sick "physical and a series of mental breakdowns over the last four years - a couple of surgeries, a ton of work by the docs, plenty of med changes and psyc help and i have returned to this world"........ Because of my issues i for the first time passed on taking the lead on our finances, taxes and the like - defuring this to my able wife. We had led a conservative life, we saved for rainy days and retirement - did this for 20+ years. When I had to leave the finances to my wife I worked on SAVING MY LIFE.
While I was sick my wife in 2007 pulled 37K in two months and played stock broker going crazy on buying, trading and in 2008 "lost it all in the markets".
I discovered that my work accident came with 9 years on WCB - money for pain, income and money to return to school.
I discovered that whatever money was saved - "the lawyer's observation was.... your wife lived off your disability and long term and short term she well bled you dry - now that you are dry she wants out" perhaps a bit harsh but she never really focused on getting a good paying job - she was happy working minum wage theought the agencies because she didn't have to do any stressful job interviews and no sticking her neck out into unknown territory.......... But the cash - it is but just about all gone.
There is more but the mediator knew what was our, my position last week. This week - well he looked at me like a piece of dirt, spoke to me like I was a greedy, selfish unreasonable "LAW quoting not lawyer idiot" and my wife......well spent most of it spitting out misinformed crap and denials. She has to pay up nothing and I am just well Stealing what ever life HER kids have left - if i get what is mine she is going to live in the streets with HER kids! (just in case by the way I am the dad - they are our kids and I have been a good DAD!)
So my wife has made little effort on her end to prepare for anything - she figured the mediator would fix everything. I put every ounce of energy i could muster on learning this divorce stuff - reading and posting here (been a greaat help!), rreading 20 times the Ontario Family Law act, the Ontario divorce act, spousal support guidelines (I have been on CPP disability since 2003) the child support guidelines, as recommended here a investment planner with at least some divorce experience, tried to read cases on CANLII and gosh even more.
The mediator's best statement was i should give all my work and research to my wife so she can bring my four months hard work to "her" attorney to well do what her attorney would be paid to do - convince her that my attorney is giving bad advice (at least that is what is in my at this point paranoid head!) I looked them both in the eye and just responded with "I will confer with my attorney before i do anything".
It has been going on for months now and it hasn't even started! I have medical issues and I will admit this hasn't made anything easier! My wife thinks i am a "^***^&@^(#!%!@&*%" my wife laid so much unsubstatiated bullshit yesterday my backside still hurts today - she said and thinks that she wants to have a retired lawyer mediate - I think it is all a waste of time. My wife accuses me of trying to rape her of whatever money she has left on lawyers and going to court and since i have been "working so darn very hard at finding every single penny I can from her and what isn't left of our marriage to screw her and OUR kids - I am lower than scum!" I have planned all along to go to court and I never PLanned on giving mediation a chance. If I wanted mediation to work I should have just done nothing, sat there whilr the mediator mediated me to death by what giving my wife my half or the rrsps the house and well left the rest in my head!
At the end of it, and he could have said this the week before, my claims regarding WCB and CPP and the issues of my wife "recklessly" depleting three quarters of our savings, my mom's death inheritance money (yes since I have medical issues all our marriage, my wife was made joint on all my affairs and it was really required many times, the last three years for sure and over the last twenty years - one fateful evening i had a work accident and 8 surgeries later, countless probing, picking, stabbing, prodding and other fun medical proceedures - I am in the fight for my life - I have no retirement plan aside form my rrsps - I won't even get a 50% stake in the CPP 65 retirement plan because i spent so many years not working (paying cpp premiums) while I was on full disability with WCB and then the last 8 on CPP disability - none of those years was I allowed to contribute - WCB took the money but they never made the deposits! (the way they work out your 90% after tax earnings includes what one would pay for CPP!) I am getting side tracked now.......
I figure the only option is court, have for a while. We actually are not a rich family but we scrimped and saved every penny we could for security of our family (notwithstanding my wife clearing out 85K out of the savings before saying divorce!). The lawyer says there are - I got confused - but so many steps before a judge, at least 8-10K in lawyers fees before i even get to see a judge on my case...... can any of this be right?????? Am I in a dream - a really bad dream?????
While I was sick "physical and a series of mental breakdowns over the last four years - a couple of surgeries, a ton of work by the docs, plenty of med changes and psyc help and i have returned to this world"........ Because of my issues i for the first time passed on taking the lead on our finances, taxes and the like - defuring this to my able wife. We had led a conservative life, we saved for rainy days and retirement - did this for 20+ years. When I had to leave the finances to my wife I worked on SAVING MY LIFE.
While I was sick my wife in 2007 pulled 37K in two months and played stock broker going crazy on buying, trading and in 2008 "lost it all in the markets".
I discovered that my work accident came with 9 years on WCB - money for pain, income and money to return to school.
I discovered that whatever money was saved - "the lawyer's observation was.... your wife lived off your disability and long term and short term she well bled you dry - now that you are dry she wants out" perhaps a bit harsh but she never really focused on getting a good paying job - she was happy working minum wage theought the agencies because she didn't have to do any stressful job interviews and no sticking her neck out into unknown territory.......... But the cash - it is but just about all gone.
There is more but the mediator knew what was our, my position last week. This week - well he looked at me like a piece of dirt, spoke to me like I was a greedy, selfish unreasonable "LAW quoting not lawyer idiot" and my wife......well spent most of it spitting out misinformed crap and denials. She has to pay up nothing and I am just well Stealing what ever life HER kids have left - if i get what is mine she is going to live in the streets with HER kids! (just in case by the way I am the dad - they are our kids and I have been a good DAD!)
So my wife has made little effort on her end to prepare for anything - she figured the mediator would fix everything. I put every ounce of energy i could muster on learning this divorce stuff - reading and posting here (been a greaat help!), rreading 20 times the Ontario Family Law act, the Ontario divorce act, spousal support guidelines (I have been on CPP disability since 2003) the child support guidelines, as recommended here a investment planner with at least some divorce experience, tried to read cases on CANLII and gosh even more.
The mediator's best statement was i should give all my work and research to my wife so she can bring my four months hard work to "her" attorney to well do what her attorney would be paid to do - convince her that my attorney is giving bad advice (at least that is what is in my at this point paranoid head!) I looked them both in the eye and just responded with "I will confer with my attorney before i do anything".
It has been going on for months now and it hasn't even started! I have medical issues and I will admit this hasn't made anything easier! My wife thinks i am a "^***^&@^(#!%!@&*%" my wife laid so much unsubstatiated bullshit yesterday my backside still hurts today - she said and thinks that she wants to have a retired lawyer mediate - I think it is all a waste of time. My wife accuses me of trying to rape her of whatever money she has left on lawyers and going to court and since i have been "working so darn very hard at finding every single penny I can from her and what isn't left of our marriage to screw her and OUR kids - I am lower than scum!" I have planned all along to go to court and I never PLanned on giving mediation a chance. If I wanted mediation to work I should have just done nothing, sat there whilr the mediator mediated me to death by what giving my wife my half or the rrsps the house and well left the rest in my head!
At the end of it, and he could have said this the week before, my claims regarding WCB and CPP and the issues of my wife "recklessly" depleting three quarters of our savings, my mom's death inheritance money (yes since I have medical issues all our marriage, my wife was made joint on all my affairs and it was really required many times, the last three years for sure and over the last twenty years - one fateful evening i had a work accident and 8 surgeries later, countless probing, picking, stabbing, prodding and other fun medical proceedures - I am in the fight for my life - I have no retirement plan aside form my rrsps - I won't even get a 50% stake in the CPP 65 retirement plan because i spent so many years not working (paying cpp premiums) while I was on full disability with WCB and then the last 8 on CPP disability - none of those years was I allowed to contribute - WCB took the money but they never made the deposits! (the way they work out your 90% after tax earnings includes what one would pay for CPP!) I am getting side tracked now.......
I figure the only option is court, have for a while. We actually are not a rich family but we scrimped and saved every penny we could for security of our family (notwithstanding my wife clearing out 85K out of the savings before saying divorce!). The lawyer says there are - I got confused - but so many steps before a judge, at least 8-10K in lawyers fees before i even get to see a judge on my case...... can any of this be right?????? Am I in a dream - a really bad dream?????
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