STBX and I have been separated since August. He desperately wants a second chance and is getting help for his controlling and abusiveness. I can see a change in him, he is working hard but I don't know what I want.
I can see my future without him, but only the next year or so. The future where we are together is cloudy. I'm not angry at him anymore, but I still feel nervous and anxious when I am near him. When I talk to him it feels like I want to give him a chance, but as soon as I hang up the phone I find I am not so sure.
He doesn't want to go back to the old ways, he wants to start over by dating etc. I don't feel emotionally ready to do that yet. How do I know what I really want and need? It's been so long since I've gotten to choose what I want that I don't know how to decide. Seriously.
I can see my future without him, but only the next year or so. The future where we are together is cloudy. I'm not angry at him anymore, but I still feel nervous and anxious when I am near him. When I talk to him it feels like I want to give him a chance, but as soon as I hang up the phone I find I am not so sure.
He doesn't want to go back to the old ways, he wants to start over by dating etc. I don't feel emotionally ready to do that yet. How do I know what I really want and need? It's been so long since I've gotten to choose what I want that I don't know how to decide. Seriously.
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