Hi,
At the end of January I told my husband of 15 years almost that I wanted a divorce. We have been going downhill since the last 3 years, fighting about the same thing since then. The sand settles and then stirs up again and it never gets settled. We have 2 boys 9 and 13. My husband is married to his PC, they call me a computer widow. Cannot relate to his boys only via the PC and that frustrates me. We talked alot, but admitted that he wasn't really listening, thinking that I was just having a female moment and so many things in between. Anyways, since I've asked for the divorce, he wants to change, why now and not then. I don't love him anymore and I've told him that, but he thinks he can make me love him again. Impossible for me. Too much added hurt over the years. We tried counselling, and he told me, that he didn't need to go, 'cause he saw nothing wrong, that I went only to vent. He got his parents involved and they don't want us to separate/divorce. His sister left her husband 1 year ago, and told us later on that she was gay. Fine, she is still who she is, I never judged her. Anyways, I want to take the final step, but am afraid. I saw the lawyer, I already opened my own account, have the separation agreement papers on hand, why is it so hard to take that final step when it's what I really want. It's difficult 'cause my husband is turning on the charm now, but it's too late for me, I just don't love him anymore. When he touches me, I gringe. Even if it's just rubbing my arm, or a gentle kiss. I need and want to move on, but can't seem to cross that finish line.
Gigi
At the end of January I told my husband of 15 years almost that I wanted a divorce. We have been going downhill since the last 3 years, fighting about the same thing since then. The sand settles and then stirs up again and it never gets settled. We have 2 boys 9 and 13. My husband is married to his PC, they call me a computer widow. Cannot relate to his boys only via the PC and that frustrates me. We talked alot, but admitted that he wasn't really listening, thinking that I was just having a female moment and so many things in between. Anyways, since I've asked for the divorce, he wants to change, why now and not then. I don't love him anymore and I've told him that, but he thinks he can make me love him again. Impossible for me. Too much added hurt over the years. We tried counselling, and he told me, that he didn't need to go, 'cause he saw nothing wrong, that I went only to vent. He got his parents involved and they don't want us to separate/divorce. His sister left her husband 1 year ago, and told us later on that she was gay. Fine, she is still who she is, I never judged her. Anyways, I want to take the final step, but am afraid. I saw the lawyer, I already opened my own account, have the separation agreement papers on hand, why is it so hard to take that final step when it's what I really want. It's difficult 'cause my husband is turning on the charm now, but it's too late for me, I just don't love him anymore. When he touches me, I gringe. Even if it's just rubbing my arm, or a gentle kiss. I need and want to move on, but can't seem to cross that finish line.
Gigi
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