I swear I have slipped into bipolar disease. Please read some sarcasm with that statement. I do not know if anyone else went through the ups and downs like I am. Presently I am proud to say I feel solidly in control of my destiny - at least as much as I can be. Other days it is a down and the mountain looks too high too climb.
I am attempting to steer the separation towards a solution that is good for me and at least acceptable for my ex. I suppose I may be being a bit selfish since I find myself more concerned lately with my future than hers at times. Is that normal? We are disconnecting so is it not natural to be concerned with my happiness and financial stability rather than hers?
It does not feel natural to be concerned on a secular basis after so many years. I do feel very successful on having mended some family issues that were eating at me. They were entirely my fault and I was simply a idiot not to recognize it. My heart explodes with joy to once again see my grandchildren and enjoy there laughter and giggles.
I hope my present "up"period continues for a lengthy period but I am mentally prepared to accept the next down period. The last week I have accomplished many things that I have set out to do. One of the most important things in my eyes was taken from a veteran on this board who basically said "get down to business and treat it like a business" I was finally able to at times put my emotions aside and get business like and start the business of separation with the necessary files notes and documentation.
Well, this was a long post and rant beneficial to nobody but me. As I have said before please accept the fact that writing is a form of relaxation and venting for me and I greedily use this forum to do it.
I am attempting to steer the separation towards a solution that is good for me and at least acceptable for my ex. I suppose I may be being a bit selfish since I find myself more concerned lately with my future than hers at times. Is that normal? We are disconnecting so is it not natural to be concerned with my happiness and financial stability rather than hers?
It does not feel natural to be concerned on a secular basis after so many years. I do feel very successful on having mended some family issues that were eating at me. They were entirely my fault and I was simply a idiot not to recognize it. My heart explodes with joy to once again see my grandchildren and enjoy there laughter and giggles.
I hope my present "up"period continues for a lengthy period but I am mentally prepared to accept the next down period. The last week I have accomplished many things that I have set out to do. One of the most important things in my eyes was taken from a veteran on this board who basically said "get down to business and treat it like a business" I was finally able to at times put my emotions aside and get business like and start the business of separation with the necessary files notes and documentation.
Well, this was a long post and rant beneficial to nobody but me. As I have said before please accept the fact that writing is a form of relaxation and venting for me and I greedily use this forum to do it.
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