I was angry when my eyes were opened to his abuse...I was in denial for decades. I finally realized this anger was mostly directed at myself, for accepting his abuse, especially for such a long period of time. The physical abuse was the hardest to get over. I'm still hurting from it emotionally.
He never offered a heartfelt apology, and if he had, I very likely would have stayed with him...especially if he had agreed to receive help. Shortly before leaving him, I stood up for myself during a minor disagreement. He showed his fist to me. I could see he would never change.
He was my world, and that was the problem, because I should have never let him overtake my heart and soul. He broke my heart and tried to kill my soul and my spirit.
I wish I could truthfully say that I have forgiven him completely. I have let go and let God take over. I have less anger now and am building a new life for myself.
It hasn't been easy, but I have never regretted leaving him. Life is much more meaningful now, and I have peace at last.
He never offered a heartfelt apology, and if he had, I very likely would have stayed with him...especially if he had agreed to receive help. Shortly before leaving him, I stood up for myself during a minor disagreement. He showed his fist to me. I could see he would never change.
He was my world, and that was the problem, because I should have never let him overtake my heart and soul. He broke my heart and tried to kill my soul and my spirit.
I wish I could truthfully say that I have forgiven him completely. I have let go and let God take over. I have less anger now and am building a new life for myself.
It hasn't been easy, but I have never regretted leaving him. Life is much more meaningful now, and I have peace at last.
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