well people lots went on both ways in my short absence and hate to say for just a little bit that speaking in the right non combative form of discussion with what are as they professed proudly adult children who in the end.......
Have all come to my aid. Have all come to better understand the plight and that it is possible to care for both sides and not care for the other any less. That the decision is for me to go ahead and take the path of accepting the help of the crisis unit here in town that sadly only could really come into play when things hit the rock bottom. I have now been assigned (as of tommorow at 8:30 a full time crisis case manager that will assist me, take me wherever i need to be taken and to offer their knowledge and skills in getting the best placement for me possibe. Tommorow at 9:00 am I along with the crisis case manager shall be at the housing "crisis" center to review possabilities and forge ahead in getting that placement i need at this point. I was a tad pro active and at the "approval" of the crisis intake worker, who then told me where it was and how to get there for an early pre visit on my own this afternoon.
Turns out that even though I hadn't slept in 34 hours I made my way and spent a so very positive fiirst contact - who turns out had been advised of me but not sure by whom or where but for sure there can't be two "me's" in the same remarkable urgent situation..... so she was happy to meet me and did a pre intake process today so it would not need to bee done tommorrow taking up what i think as valuable active looking for "the new" roof. After a bit, she said to be blut (which to me was not a required warning as she wanted to enter my medical file and circumstance into their daata base. So it appears that I fit into the restricted assisted housing program as a direct result of all those issues which i no longer think of day to day but she asked me...... and I got there on my own steam today???
So I have had the evening to think over the options she said could be made available to me - which would be a comunal type home with private rooms and common areas but with on staff case workers, social workers and specialists - oh and personal aids should one find themselves in difficulty of some form or fashion (say cooking, or getting to doctor appointments etc.) She thought strongly that this may be the best way that they could help me and until such time as i can prove my ability to remain stable and able to do on a consistant basis the basic tasks one must be able to do to live and take care of yourself properly on one's own.
Long post but last is the "simple" assessment carried out by the mental health team has reopened the doors to getting an accelerated access to staff psychiatrists to deal with my current mental state, and emotional termoil to which i find myself in - this has beeennn a very hard and trying at best past 4 days. The kids are happy that I did this - my youngest actually spent the whole day with me first at our clinic, then directed to the nearby hospital then finally over the main hospital a few miles down the road.
For the first time she was an active and vocal participant with the process, the doctors and for the very first time really got the true issues to which I have struggled with so long - doctors spent almost as long with my daughter and her friend's mother who had taken me in that very first difficult night following my release in minus 17 weather with open sandles a hoody and absolutely not one penny to even make a phone call for help or assistance - Just shown the door as it was locked behind me. Good thing for me it was not 7pm when most local establishments were on holiday hours or closed altogether.
Because I was brave enough to be honest with my children, for the first time in I can't remember I felt the power of family working in unison for the good of not just myself but in how they supported each other through the beginning of what will be a long process. Sad to say, and I asked, too bad it takes the drastic event to put so many effective wheels into motion all at once - their madate is to help those in urgent crisis not those individuals that do not like the roof they are under - notwithstanding those who find their safety in emminant peril or abuse of a certain type or level that again calls to the safety of one or more individuals to be removed - and then finds themselves in very similar circumstance to which I now for the first time have felt for the first time and hopefully last.
not much time to type but this is long so i stop here - thks again to all will keep up when i can ..
Have all come to my aid. Have all come to better understand the plight and that it is possible to care for both sides and not care for the other any less. That the decision is for me to go ahead and take the path of accepting the help of the crisis unit here in town that sadly only could really come into play when things hit the rock bottom. I have now been assigned (as of tommorow at 8:30 a full time crisis case manager that will assist me, take me wherever i need to be taken and to offer their knowledge and skills in getting the best placement for me possibe. Tommorow at 9:00 am I along with the crisis case manager shall be at the housing "crisis" center to review possabilities and forge ahead in getting that placement i need at this point. I was a tad pro active and at the "approval" of the crisis intake worker, who then told me where it was and how to get there for an early pre visit on my own this afternoon.
Turns out that even though I hadn't slept in 34 hours I made my way and spent a so very positive fiirst contact - who turns out had been advised of me but not sure by whom or where but for sure there can't be two "me's" in the same remarkable urgent situation..... so she was happy to meet me and did a pre intake process today so it would not need to bee done tommorrow taking up what i think as valuable active looking for "the new" roof. After a bit, she said to be blut (which to me was not a required warning as she wanted to enter my medical file and circumstance into their daata base. So it appears that I fit into the restricted assisted housing program as a direct result of all those issues which i no longer think of day to day but she asked me...... and I got there on my own steam today???
So I have had the evening to think over the options she said could be made available to me - which would be a comunal type home with private rooms and common areas but with on staff case workers, social workers and specialists - oh and personal aids should one find themselves in difficulty of some form or fashion (say cooking, or getting to doctor appointments etc.) She thought strongly that this may be the best way that they could help me and until such time as i can prove my ability to remain stable and able to do on a consistant basis the basic tasks one must be able to do to live and take care of yourself properly on one's own.
Long post but last is the "simple" assessment carried out by the mental health team has reopened the doors to getting an accelerated access to staff psychiatrists to deal with my current mental state, and emotional termoil to which i find myself in - this has beeennn a very hard and trying at best past 4 days. The kids are happy that I did this - my youngest actually spent the whole day with me first at our clinic, then directed to the nearby hospital then finally over the main hospital a few miles down the road.
For the first time she was an active and vocal participant with the process, the doctors and for the very first time really got the true issues to which I have struggled with so long - doctors spent almost as long with my daughter and her friend's mother who had taken me in that very first difficult night following my release in minus 17 weather with open sandles a hoody and absolutely not one penny to even make a phone call for help or assistance - Just shown the door as it was locked behind me. Good thing for me it was not 7pm when most local establishments were on holiday hours or closed altogether.
Because I was brave enough to be honest with my children, for the first time in I can't remember I felt the power of family working in unison for the good of not just myself but in how they supported each other through the beginning of what will be a long process. Sad to say, and I asked, too bad it takes the drastic event to put so many effective wheels into motion all at once - their madate is to help those in urgent crisis not those individuals that do not like the roof they are under - notwithstanding those who find their safety in emminant peril or abuse of a certain type or level that again calls to the safety of one or more individuals to be removed - and then finds themselves in very similar circumstance to which I now for the first time have felt for the first time and hopefully last.
not much time to type but this is long so i stop here - thks again to all will keep up when i can ..
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