It feels like forever since I was waking up to a house full of good craziness.
Now I wake up and im completely alone. It leaves me with too much time to think.
I feel impending doom the minute I walk into my kitchen and realize that this day may be the day I have no choice but to realize I may never see, hear and feel my adopted children.
I want to punish myself by pondering on regretting ever allowing all three of them into my heart but than I stop feeling angry for a minute and force myself to remember how good I felt. All that love and good memories is what keeps me alive.
One day I hope I can drink my coffee without tears in it.
Now I wake up and im completely alone. It leaves me with too much time to think.
I feel impending doom the minute I walk into my kitchen and realize that this day may be the day I have no choice but to realize I may never see, hear and feel my adopted children.
I want to punish myself by pondering on regretting ever allowing all three of them into my heart but than I stop feeling angry for a minute and force myself to remember how good I felt. All that love and good memories is what keeps me alive.
One day I hope I can drink my coffee without tears in it.
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