This is not a question. This is more of a revelation of sorts
This post is actually after my pictures of the kids I claimed "show down with the ex last night" delemma which I figured how to have that post only show up later --but I hope this may help....
I admit I am losing control, I admit to lots of things but it is fair to say that my issues are more than the physical and the pain I deal with daily - the more crap and the more "pressure" she puts on me is now for sure better understood as real, it shuts me down. There is a reason for my confusion and difficulty in completing even basic tasks these days, months and...... I fully felt this when, or better after I called the police and they sent the car over two Sundays ago now. Had a week off as they all let up a bit and it looked like things were going to improve......
BUt that was less than a week ago - took me most of that time to regain my bearings and understand what I have completed and more what needs to be done and the "pressure" began slowly day by day. Now in full force it is like I am going in circles all over again - I actually made good headway in the time I did have last week and I am closer to the getting this all on paper, in a row, clean and understandable to the lawyer.
Doctor is onside 1000% - we are now understanding what is happening with me and perhaps there is help for me yet. But i have to get through this place, this house, my ex, this family long enough. Medical stuff is on the go and I really think if that was ready I would throw in that towel - I really have had enough. I am really happy that I was smart enough to put a "need to do in this order" list so I can continue getting this truely horid mess of what actually went on the last three or four years.
Why this has taken so long finally is making sense but it does not make ti any easier. I am real tired and I know I just have to keep it together. I am more sure than ever that I have to stand up for myself, my rights and hopefully just a little bit of fairness to correct a few pretty big wrongs clearly made. And as it turns out, clearly in the bank records, statements etc. How to stay focused when kaos is all around????
Thnks for understanding - help has been a life saver - regards to all!
This post is actually after my pictures of the kids I claimed "show down with the ex last night" delemma which I figured how to have that post only show up later --but I hope this may help....
I admit I am losing control, I admit to lots of things but it is fair to say that my issues are more than the physical and the pain I deal with daily - the more crap and the more "pressure" she puts on me is now for sure better understood as real, it shuts me down. There is a reason for my confusion and difficulty in completing even basic tasks these days, months and...... I fully felt this when, or better after I called the police and they sent the car over two Sundays ago now. Had a week off as they all let up a bit and it looked like things were going to improve......
BUt that was less than a week ago - took me most of that time to regain my bearings and understand what I have completed and more what needs to be done and the "pressure" began slowly day by day. Now in full force it is like I am going in circles all over again - I actually made good headway in the time I did have last week and I am closer to the getting this all on paper, in a row, clean and understandable to the lawyer.
Doctor is onside 1000% - we are now understanding what is happening with me and perhaps there is help for me yet. But i have to get through this place, this house, my ex, this family long enough. Medical stuff is on the go and I really think if that was ready I would throw in that towel - I really have had enough. I am really happy that I was smart enough to put a "need to do in this order" list so I can continue getting this truely horid mess of what actually went on the last three or four years.
Why this has taken so long finally is making sense but it does not make ti any easier. I am real tired and I know I just have to keep it together. I am more sure than ever that I have to stand up for myself, my rights and hopefully just a little bit of fairness to correct a few pretty big wrongs clearly made. And as it turns out, clearly in the bank records, statements etc. How to stay focused when kaos is all around????
Thnks for understanding - help has been a life saver - regards to all!
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