Thanks to everyone for all your words on encouragement!!! I am finally beginning to feel like a person again.
After the separation between myself and my husband 2 months ago, I headed in a downward spiral. I wasn't sleeping, eating, enjoying my children or, living. I was just existing. I was depressed and hated every minute of the day. I lost about 17 lbs, which I COULD NOT afford to lose!!!
Last week, I almost lost my dignity and called my ex begging him to come back in my life. (see previous post). I'm glad now that I had the courage not to do that.
I have decided to file for divorce as soon as it is financially possible. I have realized that I cannot change my current situation. This is his decision and his loss. I am now ready to take the next step to my freedom.
I can look at my pending divorce as freedom because my ex was a very over bearing, demanding person. He was physically and emotionally abusive to me. I couldn't do anything (buy anything, watch anything, dress anyway) without a negative comment from him. I now have the freedom to do all kinds of things I couldn't or wouldn't dare do before. I have even gained 3 lbs. YEAH!!!!
I am still feeling, at times, the loss of my partner. He was the only one I spent time with (besides my children). We also have a cabin in northern Michigan which I inherited from my parents. We would go there about 2 times per month during the summer. It was our private retreat from the city and I enjoyed it very much. Now, I can't bring myself to go there because of all the memories it holds. It makes me angry that because of him, my children and I can't enjoy what we had previously enjoyed.
Any advise for those lonely feelings that keep sneaking up on me?
After the separation between myself and my husband 2 months ago, I headed in a downward spiral. I wasn't sleeping, eating, enjoying my children or, living. I was just existing. I was depressed and hated every minute of the day. I lost about 17 lbs, which I COULD NOT afford to lose!!!
Last week, I almost lost my dignity and called my ex begging him to come back in my life. (see previous post). I'm glad now that I had the courage not to do that.
I have decided to file for divorce as soon as it is financially possible. I have realized that I cannot change my current situation. This is his decision and his loss. I am now ready to take the next step to my freedom.
I can look at my pending divorce as freedom because my ex was a very over bearing, demanding person. He was physically and emotionally abusive to me. I couldn't do anything (buy anything, watch anything, dress anyway) without a negative comment from him. I now have the freedom to do all kinds of things I couldn't or wouldn't dare do before. I have even gained 3 lbs. YEAH!!!!
I am still feeling, at times, the loss of my partner. He was the only one I spent time with (besides my children). We also have a cabin in northern Michigan which I inherited from my parents. We would go there about 2 times per month during the summer. It was our private retreat from the city and I enjoyed it very much. Now, I can't bring myself to go there because of all the memories it holds. It makes me angry that because of him, my children and I can't enjoy what we had previously enjoyed.
Any advise for those lonely feelings that keep sneaking up on me?
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