Hi there. My name is Kayte.
I was (and boy is this is hard to type) married to a man in the Canadian Forces. We met about 11 years ago, back in high school and dated briefly, then broke up for about 5 or 6 years. In the summer of 2007, I found him on Facebook and we met back up, more to catch up than anything. Within a week we were dating, in February of 2008 he proposed to me and then in May of that year I got pregnant with my first daughter. We lived together, obviously, when he decided that, during the recession, that he would follow a dream of his and try to get into the Forces as a way of supporting his family. He made it in back on November 22 2010- 2 week prior to that on November 9th, we got married at city hall. Christmas of that year, we got pregnant again with our second daughter.
Well, he started to train and that's when the marriage started to suffer. I was at home, while he was at base all the time (we had to wait to move up there and we had just recently started to look into housing up where he was). So I raised our toddler, was pregnant and eventually went through our daughter's birth by myself, while he was up on base with very little responsibilities. He would visit when he felt he could afford it.
In early March this year, we got into a fight. when he finally decided to talk to me, he admitted to having tried to commit suicide and going to the doctor's as a precaution. He blamed me for pushing him to the limit, for wearing him down, saying I had all these chances to fix myself (I had, back in September, finally admitted to having post partum depression and getting help) and I wasted each chance. I tried to work on following through, fixing what he kept saying was the problem but finally he said it was over. I even was willing to work on 'us' and me when he told me slept with another woman 2 weeks ago while out with buddies up on base.
I have since admitted to it being over. I'm angry, hurt and sad...in fact I'm a ton of emotions all balled up into one. I'm looking into ways to help me cope, as well advice on how to raise and deal with children through all this. I feel so scared that, while he has this great well-paying career, I am left to start from scratch- I've been a stay-at home mom since Feb of last year and in fact, haven't really worked since prior to getting pregnant with my first.
I am happy to have found this site and hope that I get support and advice that will help through this. I know I'm strong but even the strong need help.
I was (and boy is this is hard to type) married to a man in the Canadian Forces. We met about 11 years ago, back in high school and dated briefly, then broke up for about 5 or 6 years. In the summer of 2007, I found him on Facebook and we met back up, more to catch up than anything. Within a week we were dating, in February of 2008 he proposed to me and then in May of that year I got pregnant with my first daughter. We lived together, obviously, when he decided that, during the recession, that he would follow a dream of his and try to get into the Forces as a way of supporting his family. He made it in back on November 22 2010- 2 week prior to that on November 9th, we got married at city hall. Christmas of that year, we got pregnant again with our second daughter.
Well, he started to train and that's when the marriage started to suffer. I was at home, while he was at base all the time (we had to wait to move up there and we had just recently started to look into housing up where he was). So I raised our toddler, was pregnant and eventually went through our daughter's birth by myself, while he was up on base with very little responsibilities. He would visit when he felt he could afford it.
In early March this year, we got into a fight. when he finally decided to talk to me, he admitted to having tried to commit suicide and going to the doctor's as a precaution. He blamed me for pushing him to the limit, for wearing him down, saying I had all these chances to fix myself (I had, back in September, finally admitted to having post partum depression and getting help) and I wasted each chance. I tried to work on following through, fixing what he kept saying was the problem but finally he said it was over. I even was willing to work on 'us' and me when he told me slept with another woman 2 weeks ago while out with buddies up on base.
I have since admitted to it being over. I'm angry, hurt and sad...in fact I'm a ton of emotions all balled up into one. I'm looking into ways to help me cope, as well advice on how to raise and deal with children through all this. I feel so scared that, while he has this great well-paying career, I am left to start from scratch- I've been a stay-at home mom since Feb of last year and in fact, haven't really worked since prior to getting pregnant with my first.
I am happy to have found this site and hope that I get support and advice that will help through this. I know I'm strong but even the strong need help.
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